Bonzi Barnes

fresh557 @ 2008-11-20T09:54:00

2008-11-20T15:57:14Z

i really hate lsu.

ivee been having pretty good weeks, and then i prayed for God to give me a sign whether or not i should stay, and BAM ive had the 2crappiest weeks here ever. i was in a great mood yesterday, then i went to my car and saw that someone freakin hit me the night before....which was on lsu's campus. that lead into my mom flippin on me

i just want to go back to high school :-( life was sooo much easier then

fresh557 @ 2007-07-22T03:26:00

2007-07-22T08:26:37Z

so tonight i went and videod a wedding with my dad. While videoing this wedding,actually the more and more i help video the more irealize how i can not wait till im married. The more i think about it, i plan it in my head and how i want my wedding to be, but the more i plan it out, the more my fear of being alone becomes greater. I know im only 17,but in a way i hate that ONLY part. I just feel like i may never get that oppurtunity, and i hope that the fear doesn't become reality. I think the more i look around and see things, the more my insecurities are becoming greater, and i have tried to not let that happen, but saddly it is.

School starts up in about 2 and a half weeks. I don't want to go back. I absolutely hate this principal and i just can't wait for the first week of may to come. I know this is my last year, but I don't have a ver good feeling about it. I need to work my butt off and try to get a scholarship of some sort.

i miss victory so much, i think that may be another reason why im not wanting to go back. I'd do anything to have just one more class with those people I once

fresh557 @ 2007-03-25T21:17:00

2007-03-26T02:17:44Z

my birthday is soo next week

fresh557 @ 2006-06-08T19:24:00

2006-06-09T00:24:24Z

MONDAY NEEeds TO HURRY UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR WEDNSDAY

fresh557 @ 2006-06-05T22:11:00

2006-06-06T03:11:35Z

i miss 24-hour walmarts :(

fresh557 @ 2006-04-12T23:25:00

2006-04-13T04:27:33Z

ever had one of those really good days that turned out like shit? well yeah thats what im having.

i dont even know if im going to get my damn license tomorrow due to the fact that the dmv is effed up since katrina, and the fact that we have a game tomorrow. playing for 2nd. oh i would love to win this game.

this me like me or not.

2006-02-19T09:06:53Z

okay so im not relaly in agood mood. one of my moms bestfriends son like ims me and is like whts up iwth u nd ur ganster crap. and im like what are u tlaking bout hes like ur a poser ur someone ur not. im like oh i am? hes like yeah i dont liek the friends u hang out with u need a new crowd. im like wtf u live in fucking denver how would u know who i hang out with. hes like well i dont wnat u in trouble. im like um okay how. he told me not to challenge him and hes like go look t ur myspace. look at hte firends and wht u have on there. im like whts wrong iwht my myspce nd hes like oh come on would u let ur mom see it and im like yeah. hes like why dont u let her read it.

okay first off my friends dont do drugs and they dont drink, i think right htere thats a plus. the only thing is they curse but who doenst curse. not everyone in life will be like people from victory or like hannah the best part is the people from victory arent like they used to be. the only thing tht would be wrong on my myspce is the comments and one picture.

so i went ot my mom and was like this is my myspace read everything and tell me if u approve or not i told her what hppend. i told her how i had it under private settins and dont talk to people id ont know and everythign else. the only thing she didnt approve of was the pictuer that looked like josh was spnking me.. although that pic makes me laugh so itook it off nad showed her. she was like okay. oh i tookd the tank top pic off too just cuz and deleted like 3 of dnaielles perverted ass commetns.

lets be honest here. im not usually a serious person. i love to have fun and laugh. especilly with my firends. i know right from wrong. im a goofball, my firends are just as crazy as me. whether they are from lhs, or victory or anywhere else. everyone knwos me to be the stupid one. im not going to be someone im not infront of anyone else.

yeah ive changed in some areas but who is honstly the same person all through their life. so i dont dress like a damn omish person. yeah i will wear low cut stuff, but nothing like a huge whore. im pretty conservative nd like shy bout lot of things. my personlity really hasnt changed. when im pissed off i wnt to be left alone, when im mad at someone ill go off on them if i have a good enoug hreason to. if i love u i will love u no matter wht, i will defend u no matter wht and i will always be there for u. im shy until i get otknow u then i open up. if i like u i like u if i dont then i dont. im not going to be someone im not, and i dotn suck up to anyone, nor am 2faced. ive pretty much been liek that. my mom has taught me right from wrong and i wont forget it. i do have morals and stuff but im not a freakin serious person nor am i perfect.

from the lyrics of i am me - "i am me and i wont change for anyone" and the words ive always said if u cant accept me for me then dont accept me at all.

say jigga im a kill u

2006-02-15T07:35:01Z

i really can not wait till mardi gras break. having like a week off from school to relax is something i need right now. i have had some sort of test and a crap load of homework every single day plus basketball practice/game or something with band. i very much enjyed not having practice today or yesterday, to bad tomorrow starts softball. the only reason i am playing is to be with my friends, get a shirt and because they really need people. i cant find my fricken glove and if in trouble tomorrow i really dont care bc its only ms roy and i have no problem telling her something. i am way over stressed with everything. i found out sunday night nick was cheating on rebecca, this pissed me off so much. i knew i had to tell her but didnt know how. i told sam and she was like wtf no way, and im like no really its true. shes like we have to tell her and im like yeah i know, i told her to give me till 3rd period bc id threatened nick. third period came and i started talking to him and then i just came out and told him i knew he was cheating on her, he tried denying it i told him a few lovely words and told him stop being a lil pussy and admit to it. he finally did, then he wrote me a note, which is what i wnated bc i could have proof in case rebecca didnt believe me. so what happend was he wanted me to give him till lastnight to tell her, i at first agreed but then at lunch evryone started talking about it and i had told katie and she was like omg we need to do something. so finally i was like get sam. plus i know nick and he lies and makes up bull shit stories. so finally we got rebecca at lunch and we told her, at first she didnt believe it but i showed her the note. she was like wait how long have yall known, sam told her that i told her that morning and im like i found out lastnight. i felt so bad but i knew it was the right thing to do. im very anti cheating for a specific reason, and plus when u screw iwht my friends i will kill u. so today he tried being a lil asshole and was saying a bunch of crap so i gave him smartass comments. he told everyone that he didnt like her anymore then he sits there now that they broke up and is freakin out im like dude shut the hell up and stop playing with ehr emotions. ashley was like just give me one chacne ill kill him i swear i will, i was like nice.

anyway this was the first valentines day i was in a decent mood. i didnt look at it as a negative day for the first time probably bc of a few reasons.

today in last period we had to do this powerpoint project and katie was my partner. so we hurried up and finished it so i could show her the bball pics on ken reddlers website. oh man that was the funniest thing ever. we couldnt stop laughing, then josh like leans over and is like oh man i think i know that girl, which made if funny bc it was that big black girl that looked like a man from chalmette. then all the picture of katie seemed to be like of her back, so everytime she would see herself she would get excited. then there were likf 3 werid pictures and out of no where she was all happy and was like "LOOK ITS MY TOOSH" it was great stuff. josh was like wow ur an idiot so i was like shut up and then i licked him and hes like do it again and then adam was like omg what a cawinkydink i licked him in the same spot.

the game was fun. we destroyed ecole!!! band did freakin awesome, especially on smoke on the water, and the 2nd line song. the cheerleaders did the whole dance thing to 2nd line. it was wicked. everyoen was liek dang that was cool.

fresh557 @ 2006-02-08T23:51:00

2006-02-09T06:05:41Z

i have three freakin test tomorrow and i havent studied yet. this year seriously is messed bc of katrina. these new teachers keep coming and they suck. they dont believe us when we tell them things and then we have no clue wht is going on so we get so frustrated and like want to go off but we cant. biology its like weird as piss bc nothing she talks about the lil packet thing is on the test so its like wtf. geometry dear God i have no clue wahts going on, and im getting so frustrated, i just thank God dr.asshole left. then there is spanish. let's see ms gonzales came in for like a whole semester and let us do whatever we wanted because she felt bad for us bc of katrina. this new lady from damn wisconsin comes and is like 21 and lookes like she 40 something. she keeps giving us these sentences and stuff an dshes like look it up in the dictionary and we are like wtf we have no clue how to do this. shes one of those people that u know just like had it hard in highschool and like becomes a teacher to get revenge on highschool students to like make her feel better about herself and life. sadly those things are making me wish this year was up, because honestly i am having a wondeful year and am not really looking forward to summer.

anyway today at lunch was freakin hilarious. again misty told josh and i we should go out and i was like there is no way in hell i could go out with him and josh was like she is to hyper of a person for me. so then cory was like omg shes the female arthur. i was like hell yes! so anyway elizabeth decides to steal victorias purse, and of course victoria being the person she is was clueless. so she passes it to me, i pass it to josh and josh gives it to tommy. tommy then takes everything out, puts his shoe in it. victoria after 10 mins realizes she cant find her purse, and is like where is it. after we hinted about 500 times she looks at tommy and was like omg tommy. so tommy gives her the purse. she is like wiat wheres all my stuff and flings the purse back at tommy. so then tommy takes it and flips it upside down and unips it and all u see is his shoelaces coming out and the shoe landed on corys head.

so after being without redbull for 2 weeks i finally got one. it made practice wonderful. all of us knowing it was the last practice made the best of it. it was fun. we played gotcha, just shot around and then had a scrimmage game. sam was my partner for one thing and we were laughing so hard we almost peed on ourselves. then i dared rebecca to like fit in the whole of the bleechers that were like folded and the idiot did it. thankfully katie was in a good mood, and we kept laughing at stupid things.

tomorrow - last game of the season *tears* we play chalmette, a bunch of freakin dirty ass jiggaboos. we lost by freakin 2 points last time we played them, but i think we are pumped about this game. i seriously hope we win. especially for tylers sake, since its her last basketball game ever. .... man that haas to suck being a senior

oh and now we arnet getting that dog bc the lady lied to my mommy.... oh and i found hc pictures on ked redlers website and i illegaly stole them o0o what now. oh well i put one on myspace.. which i am now addicted to

fresh557 @ 2006-01-18T22:41:00

2006-01-19T04:41:52Z

EXAMS AND STUDYING NEED TO BURN IN HELLLLL...

fresh557 @ 2005-12-30T00:37:00

2005-12-30T06:38:02Z

brunettetwinkle8: im gonna bake yall some chocolate chip cookies
brunettetwinkle8: and if you dont like them then im gonna go all AUNT JAMIMA on your ass

fresh557 @ 2005-12-28T01:12:00

2005-12-28T07:13:15Z

God will save you, boy
You just have to believe
That beautiful things will come from broken times
Just like these, just like these

God could save you, girl
In this desert time of need
Just lay your ashes down
In hope of what you'll receive, you'll receiveAnd it's OK to cry, it's OK to cry
It's OK to wonder why
And as your tears fall down, they heal the ground
A place that once was dry
It's OK to cry

God will save us now
Let His presence bring us peace
Lay your burdens down
Let them fall at His feetThe fears are great in your mind
Your heart just aches for a sign
But there is hope and there is grace
In these gray skies

fresh557 @ 2005-09-16T03:59:00

2005-09-16T09:11:22Z

so its 4 in the morning, i got back in my room about a hour ago. we were in the lobby, we made cookies, we talked and talked some more. i didnt do anything today except hung out with kristen, brennam, katie, bryant, and well sorta brett. alot of people are leaving this weekend which is sad. ive gotten so used to this place its like i want to go home because its home, but then i dont because the people here are awesome.

so i was about to go to bed but i decided i needed to write an entry and i just couldnt go to bed without writing it. i feel that this whole katrina ordeal crap has changed me, and im not sure if it was for the better. ive noticed im alot quieter now, i think a little differently, and im making smart comments more than i used to. i know that this probably has done some sort of good for all of us, because well it brought alot of people closer together wth others, and i know when i go back to lutheran, God willing it will be in october, i know lot of us will get closer with one another and have alot better outlook on the school itself. i honestly dont know what im feeling lately. iwish things could go back to normal, but i know they cant, and it will be a very long time before they do. home will no longer be home, in its own little way. im confused lately, and im not likeing it. i mean im trying to make the best of where we are at, and am thankful for being safe ect, but when im about to go to bed i begin to think about alot, and i just dont know. i think maybe im frustrated, and im not quite sure at who or what.

on the brightside, tomorrow is going to be fun. we are going shopping and joey and mr.rich are coming bak!!!! saturday, we are going to the mall of louisiana in baton rouge, and hopefully sunday, ms tanya, bryant, brennan, lil brett, and mr. brett dont check out because that will scuk majorly.

fresh557 @ 2005-09-15T23:58:00

2005-09-16T05:00:30Z

10 years ago: I was 5, my parents had recently got divorced and well yeah thats about it

5 years ago: I was 10 i think i was in 5th grade i was actually quiet and didnt talk much until later that year when i broke out of my shell

1 year ago: i started my freshman year it was cool. i still loved travis and nothing interesting really happend

Yesterday: was uhh wednsday and i was at the hotel and my uncle and stepdad left and then my cousins and my mom and i went out to eat and i almost peed on myself from laughing and then we came back to the hotel and stayed outside talking till 3

Tomorrow: my uncle and stepdad are coming back. plan on watching living with fran b/c mikalah is going to be on the show, and then going bowling

5 snacks I enjoy: jelly beans, gummi bears, strawberries, snowballs, and suckers

5 bands/artists that I know the lyrics to most of their songs: Diana Degarmo, Kelly Clarkson, NSYNC, Relient K, Jason Morant

5 things I would do with a $100,000,000:
1) Buy a fully loaded brand spankin new mustang
2) give some money to my mom and other family members
3) Shopping spree
4) Pay Diana DeGarmo to sing at my sweet 16
5) Buy a huge house

5 locations I would like to run away to: GEORGIA, florida, italy,texas, oklahoma

5 bad habits I have: trust others too much? i dunno

5 things I like doing: Hang out with my friends, talk on the phone/internet, go shopping, sleep, basketball

5 things I will always wear: My "DREAM" wristband, eyeliner, clothes? and wll yeah thts it

5 t.v. shows I like: American Idol, Boy meets world, Yes, Dear, Braceface, my super sweet 16

5 movies I like: Shrek 2, White Chicks, Cinderella story, Ice princess, billy madison

5 famous people I would Like to meet: Diana Degarmo (again), Kelly Clarkson, Adam Sandler, Sherly Swoops, Anthony Fedorov

5 biggest joys at the moment: my new spiffy laptop, friends, cell phone, hanging out late at night outside the hotel talking to everyone, and thats about it

5 favorite toys: the spiffy new laptop, cellular device, video camera, portable dvd player, and uhh thats about it

I tag, christie and RED(whenever red sees this)

fresh557 @ 2005-09-15T14:58:00

2005-09-15T19:58:53Z

YOU SUCK bahahahhaha ... gosh those were the good ol days

fresh557 @ 2005-09-14T11:31:00

2005-09-14T16:47:30Z

i feel spiffy with this new laptop oh yes. lastnight was freakin hilarious. we were all outside the hotel talking about just random stuff, so then we went in our rooms at like 2 so then my uncle started saying something that was freakin hilarious, and he said somthing and out ofno where my grandma replies and that was it i about peed all over myself, and coudlnt stop laughing, it was the greatest. you just had to be there to understand

plans changed like i knew they were going to. so we have the stupid room till october first.errrr... my cousins got their own room, thank God, and uncle joe and mr.rich left this morning to fix up the houses and stuff, and plus they both had to go back to work. i still dont know whats going to happen with school. lutheran cant make up their flippen minds on what they want to do, and my mom wants me to go to chapelle and theres no effin way. so im thinking homeschool??? im tired of people telling me what i need to do, when they dont know what the hell they are talking about. like they think i can just take normal classes, but they dont realize how far behind the school system down here sucks, or like the fact that im in tops and that requires certain classes, or the fact that all those freakin schools started before louisiana schools and that i would be way far behind, but no all i get is ur smart u can do it. i mean i know im actually kind of smart and i do make good grades and stuff, but uhh that doesnt mean i want to sit there and feel like an outsider, especially somewhere i dont want to be.... and then they ask why i hate new york. they all need to shut the hell up and realize im only going to school in metairie. now i feel better, i vented.

im starting to get sick of lafayette, the mall here sucks i misss lakeside. i think the only entertainemnt they have hear is to go to the movies, and walmart. yeah not my kind of place. 3more years till i move!!!

now back to this spiffy laptop, its all spiffified. its new, and well yes its mine mwuahahaha. i find it funny that my mom said she bought it for her when she doesnt know how to use a computer... so we all know its mine. wow i just heard the greatest news ever... cingular is not counting text messages this month for the new orleans area residents.. oh yes that means mwauahahha unlimited text messages, guess whos going to have fun with this... oh yes thats right me!

i shall end this entry..... dun dun dun

fresh557 @ 2005-08-25T23:52:00

2005-08-26T04:55:24Z

err i have a spnnish quiz tomorrow so i am studying that.

gabe and kevin are hilarious, they keep calling me "special" b/c i got all confused when gabe tried teaching me the notes on the sax, but hes retarded and cant teach them right. kevin pretended to rape me in the hallway. I think that is one of my favorite classes.

holy crap, lutheran one 2football games in a row, that is like a miracle and a half. the last time they actually one a football game was back in 99 when alex was a freshman. haha freshman senior week is coming up, and i must say i cant wait, just to see those lil bastards getting tortured gives me great satisfaction. thank God tomorrow is friday i can stay up till God knows when and sleep and it will be lovely.

yes now i am off buenos noches.. err or however u say that

sleep deprived is a bizz.....tch

2005-07-30T08:46:08Z

20days till vacation! God, i cant wait. ha i need to go shopping for clothes and crap. ive come to the conclusion that live journals are useless, and if i continue to use it, it's gonna be friends only. im tired since i cant sleep with the flippen people that are fixing the roof, so i think im going to go to sleep

goodnight <3

go ahead, look like a moron....

2005-07-26T08:58:09Z

i have to pee, and im cold. *nods*

i found 2more adams lament/jason morant cds, which i had forgotten that they had existed. this made me happy.

my nsync cds are horribly scractched, so yes i need to go buy more copies of them. alex took my other normal one that wasnt scratched *begins to think evil thoughts about him*

i was supposed to start reading my last summer reading book, but yeah that didnt happen. so uh maybe ill do that tomorrow, and hopefully this weekend ill finish the 2projects.

ive realized that "blue skies" is honestly the best cd i own. like, the more i listen to it, the more i love it.

i have mixed emotions about going back to school, but more good than bad. im kind of wanting to go back.

my dad is an ahole, i dont like him, and i now know why i dont talk to him, and realized im actually a smarter person for not talking to him. and i love how the fact that even though my parents are divorced that piece of crap thinks he can treat my mom like crap and know all her personal business. he had to talk to her tonight b/c alex is going back to school and stuff, so he needed her for something or she needed to ask him or w/e, and he started talking to her like she was nothing, and i wanted to just hang up the phone soo bad since she was on the wall phone all i had to do was click the lil thingy, but of course she didnt wnat me to, but i still dont see the problem with it

i added and took things out of my profile, and changed my font, which was soemthing ive been wanting to do, and so i did it tonight b/c of boredom.

its 4 in the morning and im wide awake=not good.

im going to go watch ice princess, now.

"i dont want to fight, dont care who's right or wrong anymore. im sick of all this pain, can it be the way it was before? when i always made you smile, seems its been a while, cuz now you are always out of reach. i wish the world would just spin faster, get to my happy ever after, youre looking at me, waiting to see the difference, the differnce in me......"

fresh557 @ 2005-07-23T03:04:00

2005-07-23T08:08:19Z

i need a job, any ideas?

How high is high?

2005-07-18T08:33:01Z

I'm in love with the voice of Jason Morant. Ahh I could listen to him sing all day. He needs to come out with a new cd, that would be greatly appreciated by me! Anywho so let's see I'm very bored at the moment. I've been doing alot of thinking about everything in my life. I know i need to start going to church more and stuff. I mean if Alex could go, then I know i should go more often. Everyone seems to have been getting closer to one another in the family, which is cool. I mean even Alex has been in a good mood, except for lastnight, and I must say i've been mean to him, but that's b/c he tries waking me up, and I take my sleep very seriously. I don't think i've ever seen a so many cousins in one week, but I don't mind at all. I really feel bad for uncle J right now, I've never seen him soo bored it's kind of funny. The fact that he doesn't have his truck anymore, sucks the big one. That truck had lots of good memories, I'm trying to convince him he needs a new mustang, but I think he'll probably get another F-150, or Expedition. I'm kind of scared about this school year. I mean I have alot of responsibility this year, like I really need to keep my gpa up. I had like a 3.2 or something, which is the lowest I've ever had, and am not used to that. I need to keep my butt focused and crap. I'm determined to pass spanish, and get on ms.oakander's good side for biology. Thank God, Maggie took the snake! so hopefully I won't have like panic attacks in bio. I'm hoping to have some sort of knowledge of where I'm going to college by junior year. I mean I have some interests. I would love to get out of state, not to get away from my friends or family or anything, but it's just something I know i need to do, but then again that scares me. I mean I'm so close to everyone here, and moving just scares me.

I have to pee really bad right now, and I'm cold. I'm really missing the days at victory. Like the other day it seemed as if everyone i hadn't talked to in a while was online, and of course we talked about all the crazy stuff that happend. So lastnight I was bored, and I was like you know i'm gonna make a collage of my pictures and make it my background. I was up till 5:30 doing it, and it was something plain and simple on paint, but when I was done with it, it made me smile. I mean i love lutheran and stuff, but it's still nto victory, i mean even the hell we went through over there, it just still doesn't compare. I miss the jason morant concerts, and bible class. i just wish i could have that again. So according to what was planned, there is going to be a reunion next year, but i want one now. i hate the fact that i don't talk to everyone, or don't see them all the time anymore. I mean i know we all had our differences,but still. I know ill always have my crew from victory, and they know who they are, but i just don't know. I hated the fact that when i went back this year to visit, all the teachers treated me like crap just because i didnt go back there this year. It's like they say they love you and want to see you happy or w/e, but the fact that i was happy at lhs made them mad, like coach dale treats me different and im like dude.
I wish victory still had youth stock, i could really use one of those.

I need to start saving money again. I have like a list of things i would love to buy. like:
1. Keyboard, since im taking band and everything this year
2. a digital camera that is actually useful
3. a laptop.
I really should stop procrastinating and apply for that job at todd's, and hopefully work there till basketball, or even work soemthing out that i could work through that and not mess my grades up. Speaking about that laptop, that reminds me we go on vacation in a month from tomorrow! Hopefully it will be fun. From what i heard, like the WHOLE family is going, which is cool. I wonder if im gonna have to go to school the monday after. I'll probably be all burnt and crap. wahoo tan!!! But then again wtih all the crap with the house we probably cant go, but God willing we can. I think we all need it.
Wow it's already 3:30, so im ending this entry, so i can go think some more, and get ready for bed.

fresh557 @ 2005-07-16T01:01:00

2005-07-16T06:53:36Z

This has been one crazy week. So tuesdaynight joey gets in a huge wreck totalls his truck, go to the hospital to find out he needs his apendex taken out. so yeah we were there for like ever. so yeah that sucked, and it was really weird that it was like exactly a week from the tornado. I don't understand why we are going through so much crap. Maybe God is trying to like tell us to get our butts straight or something, but i dunno. I mean this is really confusing and stuff, and then like my grandma might have cancer or something, and God that would totally suck. And like she sat there for 2nights with joey in the hospital and i have no clue how she did it, and its like she just stops her life to help others even though she's going through sooo much, and like my grandpa isnt here anymore. I just really wished he was still alive right now, b/c when he was it seemed as if he made everything okay, i dunno i cant explain it but he did. and like todya is his birthday which makes it even worse, and if i keep talking about it im gonna start crying. so yeah tomorrow is adams bday, and kalle and i were invited to his party so yeh im gonna go to that. I still have to like do crap for school, as in read another book, and do the two projects for that first book so thats not gonna be fun. Now that shcool is gonna start soon i really dont wanna go back.

unbreakable like nothing could go wrong

2005-07-12T08:44:32Z

so tomorrow night makes a week since the tornado crap. things have gotten better around her, thank God. Saturday was insanely awesome. I needed that so much,it was the most fun ive had in a long time. met diana again, and then i met john stevens, and latoya london. they were cool. got some autographs and felt all spiffy and stuff. the kelly clarkson concert got cancelled so i wonder when that is going to be rescheduled. i spent 50 flippen useful dollars on gettin picutres developed which wasnt a smart move, but i guess maybe it was worth it? my nerves have been real bad lately and i havent gotten much sleep, or really eaten anything. alex just officially pissed me off, but what's new. anyway so yeah i havnet seen my dad in like a year and montsh and w/e and didnt really care to see him. so today he comes to bring alex something, and my mom was outside with them showing him something, and i had to tell my mom something important but didnt want to go outside to see him b/c i dont like him one bit. so anyway i dunno what happend well yeah i do but dont feel like typing and alex kept saying crap to me and i called him a douche bag and then my effin dad starts gettin on my case, i was about to go off on him. its like okay u know i dont like u, i havnet talked to u in like almost 2 years and u want to make matters worse by getting on my case when ur son started the crap. yeah i went inside b4 i went off on him. he said other crap too, and yeah those are the reasons why i consider mr.rich my dad and not the other prick. i mean mr.rich has been in my life more than he has. then alex is all like u need ot talk to dad more, and its like no the hell i dont. anyway im bored and have nothing to do, but im not tired, and i wanna make fun of someone.

please tell me this is all just a dream.....

2005-07-07T03:25:54Z

So where do I begin? Let's start at lastnight at around 12am. Courtney calls me and i'm online and we were like omg that wind is crazy and stuff, and then my neighbor IM's me and was like yeah our lil tree just broke and it's like in flying in the wind and im like omg, so i tell my mom. so like now its like around 12:30ish, and i'm still online and on the phone. well, the weather alert comes on and i go in the front to watch it, and the dude was like yeah there's a tornado warning till 8am, well me thinking hey ive lived in this house for 15years not thinking much, i was just like yeah w/e. oh i was soo wrong, i swear 5mins later, i hear this like train noise and im like omg, and all of a sudden i just hear "BOOM BOOM BOOM" and the whole house shook, i jumped soo high and all i heard was my mom screaming get in the bathroom, and we all ran and ive never seen mr.rich wake up that fast in my life. So we were all in the bathroom and it was the scariest thing in my life. i just saw my mom freak and shake and i was like omg. so we go to look out the window and mr.richie was outside and he pointed to the back so mr.rich went to go look out the window and he's like uhh the tree fell on our house, well that was it my mom just lost it and broke into tears, alex and i were like omg what do we do. joey tried coming over but couldn't b/c the streets were messed up and stuff. it was soo freaky. the weirdest thing we were one of the only ones who didn't lose electricity, and like yeah weirdness. i went to bed at 5this morning and woke up hearing my mom on the phone crying at 8. it's like the more everyone calls the worse it is b/c we have to tell the story all over and she loses it and starts crying, and that's one of the hardest things for me is to see her cry b/c theres nothing i can do to help, and i just feel useless. so like my cousin came out today and got the tree off the roof, and my uncle and other cousins are saying even though its off theres a possibility that it could cave in, and like alex can't sleep in his room tonight, and now they have this other freakin hurricane, and im just like omg. this is making everyone freak out now. like everyone who comes through the backyard just keeps saying oh my God, that looks like it could be in a movie. Now we don't know if we can go to baton rouge saturday, and im makin every sort of excuse there is to be able to go, and between not being able to go and eveything else im about to break down and cry, and the more i think about it the worse it is. the only thing i know to do is pray for everything to be okay, and right now it doesnt look like that. everyone is all like yeah but yall will get everything new, well u know what why the hell do we always have to go through a tragedy to get something nice. it seems like everyone doesnt, but us. i just dont get it, it's just like WHY? i feel like right now that this whole thing was a dream or a made up story, but its not, its reality. i don't know what to do...........

fresh557 @ 2005-07-05T03:14:00

2005-07-05T08:25:38Z

ha today was wickedly cool. So like yeah lastnight i was like aww crap people are coming over, but nah it was awesome. we had fun. the only problem was i had a huge headache and alex was really loud and woke me up so i wasn't in a great mood the first part of the day. anyway, so yeah we just had a bunch of people over and stuff like that. So i went with joey to pick up luke, and it was funny b/c luke kept getting in his way and kept trying to sit on his lap while he was driving and his tail kept hitting me in the head. I was told how brown my eyes were today, i was like wtf?? no one has randomly just stared at my eyes and told me how brown they were i was like um okay buddy. anyway, at like 10 we all went to the winn dixie parking lot b/c it was my mom's ingenius idea to watch the fireworks from the zephyrs, since no one wanted to waste their money on fireworkds this year. so we went and there was like 5000 people there, and then the fireworks started and luke went crazy and tried jumping in the air thinking he could catch them and like took joey flying iwas like ahaha that sucks. so i was bored and i was taking pictures of the fireworks with my phone and they came out pretty coool lookin. So then my cousin was asking me what cds i have and now i have the lovely pleasure of burning her all of them. eh i guess ill have something to do tonight. ahh crap HAPPY BIRTHDAY KALLE!!!!!
oh yeah 9months till im 16.. can't wait to get the bitmobile im soo gonna pimp that thing out with speakers and stuff even though it has a good system already. you know i haven't talked to arthur or seth in like forever. i just randomly thought of that. so tomorrow theres a freakin tropical storm coming, wtf i hate freakin hurricanes and all that crap. and then theres some other freakin possible hurricane gonna nail us like soon. i swear if it comes anywhere near saturday im going to be pissed beyond belief. ahh thursday im getting my highlights and stuff done, im thinking i want bangs. crap i have to get like a lot of stuff this week. this week is jam packed with like stuff, its crazy crazy crazy. well im off to burn some cds much love